eugene

2010-01-22T22:12:00.001+08:00

How can a simple pure coincidental thing end up as a big commotion? i dont understand. yes, i started it, i started saying things about it to people, and it wasnt meant to reach your ears. im sorry. it affected you, it irritated you. so much so that you came to talk to me about it. yeah, maybe i should save all the explanations, cause you dont trust anyone regarding this incident now. why? because of me. just when i thought i have stopped giving you problems, this arised. its just the first month of 2010, and im already facing so many problems. stress, not coping well with studies, relationships, phobia for the Os. im sure you are going through problems too. how many more problems will i give you for the next 11 months of 2010, i dont know. i dont want to give you anymore problems. i swear. it just a matter of self-control. i know i can learn it. i need time. talking about time, alot of time has indeed been given to me. to make myself a better person to deserve you. one year - more than enough time. but why am i still like that? so many question marks, but no answers are coming in. so many times in the past year, i thought to myself that maybe im really not the person for you, we are not supposed to be together. but i chose to continue to have that belief, that it will all work out one day. so many incidents have proved to me that yes, i really do not deserve to be with you. maybe thats the fact. but I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON YOU, TILL THE VERY DAY WHERE ANSWERS OF 100% CERTAINTY SURFACES. i promise.

Once again, sorry for all the problems and irritations i have caused to you for this incident. Im sorry.

2010-01-08T22:47:00.002+08:00

Hey.. Long long longggggggggg time since im typing this man. Im very confused now. I dont know what to do, I dont know how I feel. I know i still love you, the feeling is still there, but it's different. Thinking about it now, it has been a year. Well, many different things happened, many different things changed. It could be, or rather, would be a better year with your presence, as a different identity in my life. Can i wait till after the Os, i dont really know. But there is something i know for sure. It will not work out now, for you, and for myself. I'm willing to wait, but the question is, "how long can i wait?" I believe i can do it.
Im really damn confused now, i really dont know. But everything all goes back to the simple reason - I love you, Always and Forever.

2008-06-11T11:35:00.002+08:00

i finally realise,
what a boyfriend i am.

2008-05-19T15:28:00.010+08:00

190508
i shall post due to popular demand again !

i donated to the cheena quake.
i'm a kind soul, like duh.

got back the results for MYE.
and just because i got third in class last year,
my parents expect me to get third or even better through out my secondary life.
they are not even satisfied,
even if i got sixth in class.
i dunno. i've done my best anyway.

i'm damn bored.
just came back from cousin's house.
slept over last night.
and i didn't realise it until i woke up.
haha.

there's going to be a grooming check this week,
when it's the week before the june holidays.
the school, seriously, has, no, life.
why the hell have a grooming check when it's the holidays next week.
lol. damn dumb lah.
dun feel like going school anyway.
but mother wants me to.
so, too bad

iloveyou/

2008-05-04T13:46:00.003+08:00

a new morning,
a new day to love you.

imissyou.

2008-04-26T11:56:00.004+08:00

i shall post.
due to popular demand.

hahah. that was meant to be a joke man.

230408
went for the streaming talk.
before that, went to eat lunch at mac after school.
with ronghui. jude came later.
and im called png dun ZENG!
bad kitty zeng. hahah.
go meet jaslyn and wenxi later.
they had lunch in sumo house. edger came.
almost lost my wallet.
jude kept it.
then we went back school lah duh.
mother came for the talk.
but couldn't find her.
called her, but she didn't want to answer.
because she was already in the hall.
then she was like,
"can you shut up and come to the hall and find me?"
then i replied,
"is either you come out and find me, or you listen to the talk yourself."
no reply.
ended up sitting at the back fo the hall with alot of people lah.
mrs ng confiscated jiaqing's phone. then they quarrelled.
got his phone back eventually. (:
met my mother after the talk. go eat dinner, and went home.

&she knows it's you idiot.

240408
napfa test!
yay. all A i think. except for sit and reach.
sit ups - 51.
standing broad jump - 230 cm. ((:
sit and reach - 40 cm.
incline pull up - 26.
shuttle run - 9.9 seconds.
2.4 run - 11.13 minutes.
hahah. damn happy lah.
played soccer with ariff after the test.
and it was raining.
om han stopped us from playing.
went home after that. :D

250408
happy toilet after school.
dunno which group stole our group's posters and drawings.
in the end we only had two patricks.
dunno where the naked one went to.
haha. then we go buy construction paper.
USING MY MONEY. dumbass.
hahah. yubin started to anyhow scribble.
anyhow draw.
i did nothing. just stand under the fan.
imagine being in the toilet for one hour plus.
damn smelly somemore.
waited for someone later.
went home.

imyyyyy!

2008-04-18T13:16:00.000+08:00

imy,

alotalotalot.

2008-04-12T16:10:00.003+08:00

sorry,

and that's all i can say now.

i don't ask for your forgiveness,
but at least, i ask for your understanding.

ily, iny.

2008-03-23T12:42:00.009+08:00

what on earth is happening lah.
you promised,
and i believed you.
you kept the promise for a month.
and you broke it finally.
so this is the definition of promise to you. okay.
if you can't keep a promise, which is so fucking simple,
why make it?
it's just to keep quiet.
is it so difficult?
please.
stop it.

i won't
whatever it is,
it's your decision,
and i'll respect it
don't be sorry when it's my fault and not yours.

because, iloveyou.

2008-03-12T15:00:00.008+08:00

don't be afraid again.
i'll never ever leave you.
even if it costs my life.
remember my promises?
i'll keep them.
you mean the world to me.
why would i leave you.
that day will never come.
and it won't come.
trust me.
i don't know what happened last night,
maybe it was my fault,
maybe i sounded irritated.
i didn't mean it.
i'm sorry.
i love you,
AND I MEAN THESE THREE WORDS.
felix and Ffion loves you.

hughug

2008-03-09T16:56:00.003+08:00

yay. back from hell. (:
the camp is like. whatthehell.
we paid twenty dollars.
and the food they give us is like.
not even four dollars.
lol.
okay lah. camp's quite fun.

first day
then we were supposed to think of a skit.
for the campfire.
so, we did mas selemat. lol. :D
quite fun lah.
i was the narrator. (:
yah. then we went to bathe.
their two minutes is like 3o seconds.
lol. didn't even have time to bathe properly.
we had a sing along session after that.
the songs were damn horny lah. wth.
went for sentry duty.
with edwin.
was damn fun lah.
quite scary. (:
lights off, first day gone.

second day.
woke up at 5.
then changed to full pt kit.
falled in.
did pt, then jogged to st nicholas.
damn tiring.
hahas. came back for dinner, kaya with bread. - -
got food eat very good liao. (:
yah. then we did arm drills.
for like damn long.
then we went outdoor cooking.
after that we had a test.
overall third. :D yay.
sing along again,
with the npcc.
damn sian.
bathed, dinnered,
campfired. (:
slept.
another day gone.

third day,
damn slack,
same old stuff,
go home.
whole camp gone. (:

i missed you,
kisskiss.

2008-03-06T21:02:00.003+08:00

what a day.
tomorrow's ncc camp.
i don't want to go.
i don't want to leave you.
for three full days.
i'll miss you.
i'll keep my promises.

i love you,
mbk.

2008-03-02T13:40:00.002+08:00

:D
changed blogskin.
lol.
just came back from cousin's house.
stayed over last night.
haha.

don't feel like posting about yesterday.
tired and lazy. =x
haha.
like that lurh.
update more next time lah.

The Fs.

2008-02-22T18:48:00.002+08:00

a longlonglong post today.

monday
okay. first day of common test.
had english and chinese paper.
when i read the english paper i thought it was literature
because of the little prince, lol.
hahas. okay lah. formal letter quite easy.
chinese paper was okay, good day.
went home to study for math after school. yay.

tuesday
math was like,
lol.
we expected it to be a damn difficult paper or something.
then was only tested on the basics,
okay lah, not trying to hao-lian. lol.
literature is a failed subject.
die.

wednesday
okay. same old thing,
common test,
science and history fail already.
left class at 12.25.
for the ncc thingy.
when we reached the camp,
we stood there for like damn long,
then the sir come out and say the programme is cancelled.
fine,
highlight of the day,
handphone confiscated.
woooooooooohoooooooooooooo.
sorry, whywhy.
haha.
like that lurh.
another good day.

thursday,
last day of common test. art and d&t
passing art, failing d&t. yay.
sian ned day.

friday!
shall not post for today,
tired already.
:D

MBK

2008-02-06T16:38:00.001+08:00

yesterday,
was staying back randomly.
then lip koon and daniel saw me.
say what im chosen for the total defence thing.
ncc derh stuff lah.
so, went with them.
the dunno who say there will be a dry run in five minutes.
then one hour liao still haven't start.
sian ned. ran away from the thing.
went to the canteen.
jaslyn, syuhrah, ronghui and jeremiah was there.
then jaslyn asked me to teach her how to solve the rubik's cube.
gave her the formula.
she don't understand.
i bo bian. hahas.
as usual,
was being a joker.
like one retard.
(read syuhrah's blog)
:D
hahas. then went homr lurh.
father's in singapore.
no choice. go home early.
(:

today cny celebration.
wake up, brush teeth, bathe,
make hair, took handphone and wallet then go take bus.
reached damn early.
hahas. dunno lah.
today damn sian.
celebration over went back to primary school.
then like this like that.
went home. blogged,
going for reunion dinner later.
hahas.
bye people.
:D

2008-01-30T21:06:00.000+08:00

290108
went to school lah duh.
eat sweets, sleep in class, scold teacher.
normal routine,
like lol.
haha. after school.
went to kfc with dovin, cles huang and lastly my dear paul darling.
ate the golden fiesta thing.
i think its called golden fiesta. lol.
ate ate ate.
dovin ate half way go toilet.
haha,
PRAWN IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS?!
:D
was being super joker down there lah.
went to hub later on. bought the cny things for their class.
when i don't even care about my OWN class. haha.
okay. then went jubilee's popular buy materials again.
cam-whored like dunno wad can.
photos at my friendster. (:
haha. paul's love letter rocks.
wrote one for him today also.
lol lah. can.
haha. then went back to school. do this do that.
went home.
:D

2008-01-27T12:17:00.000+08:00

and syuhrah ;
HAPPY BIRTHDAY !

2008-01-27T11:45:00.000+08:00

26.01.08
went out with gladys, wenhsuen and edwin to j8.
for a movie.
haha.
watched one missed call.
second time watching it. lol.
reached j8 earlier than the others.
then nothing to do.
so, sat on the toilet bowl in the cubicle.
then go meet gladys first.
played with the rubik's cube.
lol. don't know how to solve.
wenhsuen came, followed by edwin.
walked around, then go watch the movie.
went to the library after that.
saw cherie, devika, edelweiss and jiejia.
haha. after that went hub.
walked around again,
went home.

2008-01-18T19:37:00.000+08:00

all hate me then.

sorry.

2008-01-16T20:40:00.000+08:00

FOUGHT!
bled. haha. nvm. small matter. (:

2008-01-15T19:05:00.000+08:00

hohoho. have not post for a long long time!
haha.
okay. suay day today.
kena ankle socks.
tsktsk.
suay suay mr prem come to the class then asked me and yubin to go out.
the reason's super lame.
he saw one girl from 2a not wearing the tie. then ask me and yubin to indentify her.
please lah.
then kena socks lorh.
CONFISCATED MY SHOES DUMBASS,
haha. walk around without shoes.
now socks damn black. like indian.
okay. that's all.
PURPLE SPECTACLES! HAHA.
:D

2008-01-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

1.1.08
first day of the year.
good game.
food poisoning.
lol lah.
vomited like water tap sial.
vomited like 8 times lorh.
damn sick.
haha.
went to see the doctor.
was given a jab to stop the vomitting.
doesn't seem to work.
still vomited like nobody's business.
but it was better later lah.
haha.
ate medicine.
vomited them out AGAIN.
damn pekcek.
then like that lorh.
end of story.

2.1.08
okay. wasn't supposed to go to school today.
but still went.
haha. zai marh. (:
morining.
had a spotcheck.
wasn't caught at first.
suay suay later.
that evelyn ng saw my fringe.
then ask me cut them.
yaya.
then now my fringe is so damn straight.
haha.
win liao.
hair always kena.
tsktsk.
then went back to class.
the chinese teacher sucks can.
lol.
then talk talk talk.
end of school.

2007-12-31T20:11:00.000+08:00

last day of the year.
didn't go for the countdown this time.
no mood. siol.
okay. went out to heeren today.
bought green flip flops.
then walked around orchard.
bought school shoes too.
like that la.
happy new year people.

I LOVE YOU.
YOU HEAR?

2007-12-30T11:41:00.000+08:00

27. 12. o7
had ncc training.
wahlan eh.
ncc sucks la.
yaya.
woke up at 6.30.
bathed ate and bused to school.
was late for training already.
still walk slowly like nobody's business.
the SLs formed two rows.
to welcome the secondary ones.
wtf? this year they big shot.
okay. then walked pass them.
kan paiseh sial.
saw gladys.
gave her a "BEAUTIFUL SMILE."
according to her.
my ass la.
beautiful smile.
ya. then still walk slowly to the platoon.
first thing.
pumped.
pump lorh.
then ran to the pdp area.
when sir farees asked those who think that their hair was long to fall out.
good game.
kan and kan and kan,
pump and pump and pump.
win liao lorh,
need go cut hair.
aiya. then the rest of the training is just drills la.
slacked like a ass.
okay. then training finally ended.
went home, cut hair.

28.12.07
NCC TRAINING AGAIN!
simply hate it.
was suppose to have a master parade today,
and those fuckers who ponned the training made the parade impossible.
fuck, parade cancelled.
too little cadets.
then drilled, as normal,
and dismantled the tentage.
went to clean up the ncc storeroom.
then like that lorh.
training ended.
saw glenn the chao paikia.
jialat sial.
pangsehed him!
sorry la.
then went someone's house.
and went home.

2007-12-20T20:59:00.000+08:00

& fuck off.

wooooooooo.
went out to Peninsula today with guowei.
to buy skinnies.
bought cardigan too. (:
then walked to Raffles City to walk and walk and walk.
jingyee messaged me.
to meet her at bugis. okay lorh.
but she was still on the bed when she messaged me! - -.
asked me to wait for her message.
so, waste time. walk from Peninsula to Raffles City.
then from Raffles City to Peninsula.
sat down at the staircase in Peninsula to spam guowei's psp.
then again, walked to Raflles City.
and to Marina Square.
went to the food court to slack.
again, spammed psp.
jingyee's message finally came!
mrt-ed dwon to bugis.
wanted to meet somewhere.
then we walked pass each other without noticing.
HAHA. (:
met each other in the end la. duh.
went to the arcade.
stoned there for like two hours.
waiting for jingyee's friends.
friends came,
after awhile, had to go home.
so goodbye.
WOOOOOOOOOOOO. :D

2007-12-19T18:40:00.000+08:00

what you want?
what the fuck you want?

2007-12-17T00:59:00.000+08:00

okay lorh.
win liao lorh.

& i still love you, like how i did.

2007-12-14T18:22:00.000+08:00

11.12.07
went to syuhrah's class chalet at coasta sands.
had fun larh.
met syuhrah and cles chun at hub in the morning.
then went to ntuc to buy a birthday cake.
AND I PAID FOR IT.
haha. quite cheap larh. don't mind anyway.
went taking 88 later on.
WAS SLAPPED BY CLES ON THE WAY!
i was like wtf?
haha, don't mind la. she don't mean it anyway.
complaining and complaining that i walk like a ahgua and so on.
paint nails nia. (:
haha. then shiting and nina boarded the bus later on.
whole bus journey so so sian.
and cles was happy making up. - -
reached there, then ate kfc.
checked in, and i stayed in the chalet room while they went looking for some one.
cam-whored. because i was in the room ALONE. and its damn sian.
haha. then later we watched the 5.30 show. WOOOOOO
tried starting the fire for bbq later on.
was trying and trying when peter came helping.
fire finally started! was cooking the whole night. while the girls are waiting for the food.
then ate later. with peter and arel.
went to the arcade with peter and arel again.
took 88 form pasir ris to amk. was worrying if i could catch the last bus home.
while syuhrah and her gang was having fun at the arcade. good lor.
reached home at 12.
and into my dreams.

2007-12-08T11:08:00.000+08:00

bought bought bought (:
bought that bag!
haha. went tampines mall yesterday.
then bought that zinc bag :D
wanted to buy that pair of shoes from everlast too.
but didn't want ot spend too much money on the same day. so guai (:
hahas.
woohoo~ painting my nails.
damn nice. damn high. lols.
okay, i know its gay. don't mind anyway.
gayness rock on. (:

2007-12-06T13:09:00.000+08:00

update update update. :D
finally got this ahgua hair cut.
went to cut my hair yesterday. and looked like a ahgua after cutting.
went back today to cut again.
finally look normal. (:
going to singapore expo later. for don't know what also.
better than staying at home.

& fuck off.

2007-12-05T12:48:00.000+08:00

finally a day with a morning!
haha. home sweet home. finally back from cousin's house.
yesterday, went hub for dinner with mother and grandmother.
saw jaslyn and syuhrah. and they are saying that i walk damn gay. (:
bo bian.
then reached home, computered, psp-ed, bathed, slept.
woke up this morning, computered now, posting now, and psp-ing later.
haha. that's all. nothing already.

2007-12-04T13:23:00.000+08:00

haha. okay. another day without a morning at my cousin's house again.
have been staying here for the past week.
every night laptop until 4, 5 plus. after laptoping will go spam psp again.
spam until 6 then sleep. daily routine :D
going home today. back to my rotting process. haha.
and syuhrah is so crazy over kerpal that she spams it on my tagboard.
your daughter kicked my dog. (x

&now, things are getting better for you, i think.

2007-12-03T23:26:00.001+08:00

nfrjgnbethte
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2007-12-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

created this blog out of random, and the skin is also very random (:
THE FONT IS SMALL damn small. also don't know why.
doesn't matter. don't care. :D
haha. that's all for toda. will post moe tomorrow (:

2007-12-03T21:30:00.000+08:00

this is a new blog.

2007-12-03T17:44:00.000+08:00

okay. the fonts are finally big enough to be read.
thanks la cherie. for helping (:
best friend award. that lasts 30 seconds. haha.