/ loverevol

Friday, January 22, 2010/ 10:12 PM

How can a simple pure coincidental thing end up as a big commotion? i dont understand. yes, i started it, i started saying things about it to people, and it wasnt meant to reach your ears. im sorry. it affected you, it irritated you. so much so that you came to talk to me about it. yeah, maybe i should save all the explanations, cause you dont trust anyone regarding this incident now. why? because of me. just when i thought i have stopped giving you problems, this arised. its just the first month of 2010, and im already facing so many problems. stress, not coping well with studies, relationships, phobia for the Os. im sure you are going through problems too. how many more problems will i give you for the next 11 months of 2010, i dont know. i dont want to give you anymore problems. i swear. it just a matter of self-control. i know i can learn it. i need time. talking about time, alot of time has indeed been given to me. to make myself a better person to deserve you. one year - more than enough time. but why am i still like that? so many question marks, but no answers are coming in. so many times in the past year, i thought to myself that maybe im really not the person for you, we are not supposed to be together. but i chose to continue to have that belief, that it will all work out one day. so many incidents have proved to me that yes, i really do not deserve to be with you. maybe thats the fact. but I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON YOU, TILL THE VERY DAY WHERE ANSWERS OF 100% CERTAINTY SURFACES. i promise.

Once again, sorry for all the problems and irritations i have caused to you for this incident. Im sorry.

Friday, January 8, 2010/ 10:47 PM

Hey.. Long long longggggggggg time since im typing this man. Im very confused now. I dont know what to do, I dont know how I feel. I know i still love you, the feeling is still there, but it's different. Thinking about it now, it has been a year. Well, many different things happened, many different things changed. It could be, or rather, would be a better year with your presence, as a different identity in my life. Can i wait till after the Os, i dont really know. But there is something i know for sure. It will not work out now, for you, and for myself. I'm willing to wait, but the question is, "how long can i wait?" I believe i can do it.
Im really damn confused now, i really dont know. But everything all goes back to the simple reason - I love you, Always and Forever.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008/ 11:35 AM

i finally realise,
what a boyfriend i am.

Monday, May 19, 2008/ 3:28 PM

190508
i shall post due to popular demand again !

i donated to the cheena quake.
i'm a kind soul, like duh.

got back the results for MYE.
and just because i got third in class last year,
my parents expect me to get third or even better through out my secondary life.
they are not even satisfied,
even if i got sixth in class.
i dunno. i've done my best anyway.

i'm damn bored.
just came back from cousin's house.
slept over last night.
and i didn't realise it until i woke up.
haha.

there's going to be a grooming check this week,
when it's the week before the june holidays.
the school, seriously, has, no, life.
why the hell have a grooming check when it's the holidays next week.
lol. damn dumb lah.
dun feel like going school anyway.
but mother wants me to.
so, too bad

iloveyou/

Sunday, May 4, 2008/ 1:46 PM

a new morning,
a new day to love you.

imissyou.

Saturday, April 26, 2008/ 11:56 AM

i shall post.
due to popular demand.

hahah. that was meant to be a joke man.

230408
went for the streaming talk.
before that, went to eat lunch at mac after school.
with ronghui. jude came later.
and im called png dun ZENG!
bad kitty zeng. hahah.
go meet jaslyn and wenxi later.
they had lunch in sumo house. edger came.
almost lost my wallet.
jude kept it.
then we went back school lah duh.
mother came for the talk.
but couldn't find her.
called her, but she didn't want to answer.
because she was already in the hall.
then she was like,
"can you shut up and come to the hall and find me?"
then i replied,
"is either you come out and find me, or you listen to the talk yourself."
no reply.
ended up sitting at the back fo the hall with alot of people lah.
mrs ng confiscated jiaqing's phone. then they quarrelled.
got his phone back eventually. (:
met my mother after the talk. go eat dinner, and went home.

&she knows it's you idiot.

240408
napfa test!
yay. all A i think. except for sit and reach.
sit ups - 51.
standing broad jump - 230 cm. ((:
sit and reach - 40 cm.
incline pull up - 26.
shuttle run - 9.9 seconds.
2.4 run - 11.13 minutes.
hahah. damn happy lah.
played soccer with ariff after the test.
and it was raining.
om han stopped us from playing.
went home after that. :D

250408
happy toilet after school.
dunno which group stole our group's posters and drawings.
in the end we only had two patricks.
dunno where the naked one went to.
haha. then we go buy construction paper.
USING MY MONEY. dumbass.
hahah. yubin started to anyhow scribble.
anyhow draw.
i did nothing. just stand under the fan.
imagine being in the toilet for one hour plus.
damn smelly somemore.
waited for someone later.
went home.

imyyyyy!

Friday, April 18, 2008/ 1:16 PM

imy,

alotalotalot.