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Friday, January 22, 2010/ 10:12 PM
How can a simple pure coincidental thing end up as a big commotion? i dont understand. yes, i started it, i started saying things about it to people, and it wasnt meant to reach your ears. im sorry. it affected you, it irritated you. so much so that you came to talk to me about it. yeah, maybe i should save all the explanations, cause you dont trust anyone regarding this incident now. why? because of me. just when i thought i have stopped giving you problems, this arised. its just the first month of 2010, and im already facing so many problems. stress, not coping well with studies, relationships, phobia for the Os. im sure you are going through problems too. how many more problems will i give you for the next 11 months of 2010, i dont know. i dont want to give you anymore problems. i swear. it just a matter of self-control. i know i can learn it. i need time. talking about time, alot of time has indeed been given to me. to make myself a better person to deserve you. one year - more than enough time. but why am i still like that? so many question marks, but no answers are coming in. so many times in the past year, i thought to myself that maybe im really not the person for you, we are not supposed to be together. but i chose to continue to have that belief, that it will all work out one day. so many incidents have proved to me that yes, i really do not deserve to be with you. maybe thats the fact. but I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON YOU, TILL THE VERY DAY WHERE ANSWERS OF 100% CERTAINTY SURFACES. i promise. Once again, sorry for all the problems and irritations i have caused to you for this incident. Im sorry.
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